" I-ii w-want something can we go to store ? "

" You want to go out hnn ? Who you want to see , tell me " i shake my head infront of him being afraid i just wanted something from store .

" Don't you have voice hnn ? " He said in anger and held my jaw i tried to back away but he cupped my face harshly just to kiss me with so much power .

" I just want to buy something with you i want to go with you , trust me hoseok baby " i said crying hoping he would understand .

" You should've said it before " he scold me , i just nod my head .

" These tears hmm " i thought he would wipe but instead he licked my face biting my cheeks .

" I love when you're in my control . I fucking love you , you know right ? "

" Yes , i know " i said immediately but I forgot to say back so he pulled my face more closer by fisting my hair tightly .

" What did you say ? Where's your response you're being bad wife i think i need to remind you . Right ? "

" No no , I am sorry please hoseok baby . I love you baby i love you too , i am sorry i missed it please " i begged him crying hard . I know if he didn't calm then he's going to do what i am terrified of , i don't want to see his monster side again .

" This is the last time , i am letting it go otherwise you know very well ? What do you want from store tell me "

How can I tell him i want a razor . I am almost everyday naked infront of him i don't want to look down on myself .

" Panty ? Bra ? What do you need i think i have bought enough . Do you want more , the sexy one hmm "

" R-razor " i finally said lowering my gaze almost dying in embarrassment .

" Why ? You know i don't mind eating you  however you're . Let me check first how is there show me , pants off now "

" Please , i need this hoseok baby " i hugged him tightly , not knowing what to do .

" Aren't you being a naughty girl ? Pressing your flower against me hmm . I see my wife is trying to be naughty " he slide his hand inside my panty making me broke the hug but he didn't let me , he pulled me closer again .

" Not much baby , it just a little amount don't you worry we will buy a razor for you and i will shave your flower for you , right ? " Not having any say in this or any matter i nod my head .

" Go prepare dinner now " i went to kitchen i feel like throwing up . Almost all refrigerator is filled with meat .

" Can I cook vegetable soup ? " I asked standing infront of him .

" Yeah soup with fried chicken , go prepare " i prepared everything accordingly .

" Why aren't you eating ? Do you want my son to starve " he shouted .

" No no it's not like this , i am done now " i said being terrified . He always terrifies me , it's like i don't know what will he do in the next moment he's so  unpredictable.

" Open your mouth " holding my jaw he forcefully feed me , tear roll down to my cheeks because of his hold .

" I'll kill you if you do anything wrong ! " He went away leaving the apartment. I closed the door immediately because i am not allowed to talk to anyone otherwise he'll do something i regret .

I did whole work cleaning the kitchen , did all the dishes everything . I feel sleepy but can't sleep i need to wait for him as a good wife . Resting my back on headboard i stared at the door .

He came all drunk stumbling on feet . Why ? What have i done to deserve this , to deserve a husband like him. A rapist abusive husband , i was the little girl of my parents and siblings they cherished me a lot as they could being a middle classer . In this home I've found all the luxurious except love , care , comfort .

" Just gonna stare me ? " I went to him even he is tipsy but can't let any chance to go where he can insult me .

" Ahhh ! It's hurting " i hissed in pain when he pulled my hair , i don't know why ? I was just removing his shoes .

" No i love you , no greetings . Did you forget about me ? " He said pulling my face closer to his .

" Sorry please hoseok baby it's hurting . I am sorry I'll never forget " i cried in pain he left with my hair just to kiss me more harshly .

" Get naked now i am feeling very hot " holding my tears back i did what he said he removed his pants sitting on bed .

" On your knees fill your mouth now " tears rolled down on my cheeks . I wish i could die now . I can't bear anymore he's treating me like i am not a human . Being out of breath i free my mouth for a sec but he slapped me calling me with names .

" You don't want mine , right ? You want new dick everyday . I'll kill you if you ever disrespect me like this "

" I-i am s-sorry " pathetic or miserable call me anything you want but i can't do anything to him . I don't know anyone who could help me , no one is mine here .

" Sit on my lap , now ! " Doing what he says like a puppet of him , i am tired of all of this . I need to get out of here .

Here i am cleaning the floor where he throwed up last night because of the alcohol . He calls me wife but i just feel i am worst than a maid . My thoughts came on halt when the doorbell rang suddenly , he just left then who would it be i don't even have phone to call him because he's gonna kill me if i even see another person than him . With shivering hands i open the door there was a beautiful woman standing with something in her hands .

" We just shifted here , hope we can get along " she told me English . Happiness of hope i felt .

" O-ok " i said in short  , i don't know what to say more .

" This is for you i hope you like it , these chocolates are from my hometown " i don't want to deny but i had to .

" Thanks a lot but i don't eat chocolate , i am sorry " she shook her head smiling .

" It's fine , what's your name ? "

" Jeong Hana " i wish i could let her in and talk to her , it's been long almost two years i talked to someone other than him.

" You don't look like Korean , are you a foreigner? "

" Yes , i am "

" Can we talk inside , i hope you don't mind or you can come inside my apartment" she asked nervously . I don't want to do , hoseok isn't here i can let her in right ?

" Please , come in " i said to her .

" What would you like to have " i asked standing, she was sitting on sofa .

" I don't want anything sorry i haven't tell you my name . I am Mary Joseph , do you live alone ? "

No i live with a monster .

" I live with my husband" she was shocked to hear i don't know why maybe because i am not so old .

" You're married , oh my . You're so young and beautiful "

" T-thank you " i hate this word beautiful.

" Don't tell me you're pregnant it would be more surprising " she laughed she was trying to tease , i guess .

" I am pregnant " i said happily , i can't lie about this .

" Woah , you're full of surprises Hana . Let me guess it's a daughter , right? "

" I don't know " a daughter ?

" I just felt because girls take the beauty of mother and you're looking restless, don't get me wrong it's just my thought . I am going hope to have a chit chat again with you Hana " she left me shivering. A daughter ? What if he , i don't know anything i just need to get out of here .

But where will I go i can't ask for help from her because if he found out he's gonna do something bad with her . I can't let that happen , should i kill myself ? I guess this is what I can . I am sorry my baby forgive mumma . Holding the knife in my shivering hand i remember everything , i am sorry mumma papa your daughter isn't brave enough . i cutted my wrist at last don't know what happen next .